11 days after DANA caused a disastrous flood in Valencia, I go into the affected areas for the fourth time. The more often I go there, the more it seems to affect me. Physically and mentally. Guilt is just one of the many feelings I'm feeling whenever I come back from volunteering. Questions start to arise: Why did this catastrophe happen? How is it possible to live a normal life next to a war zone-like area? Did a movie just become a reality? How much more will I be able to handle?